Dissapointing.....

Erm...i've a terrible days here. Granpa and grandma pay visit. That was a fun to have time with them..But at the same time i've been admitted for treatment again. Don't know when i'll be ok. Only He knows...but all that thing is never make me cry until i met dad's parents.

" My son spent a lot of money for sick step daughter" Make me feel bad. Not because they talk about me. But they talk about papa's sacrifice. Well pap passed away when he was in his duty. So we get some amount of money as a compehension. the amount was big which i could use for another 15-20years. So all my education and my stuff dealt by papa. Why should i beg with someone for something. My papa done all the things for me.

Aside to mama and dad sorry for tat statement. But hope both of you undestand my feelings. So i stay with grandparents ( papa's parents ) untill i finish my degree. Then will move to Pahang ( Mama's paernts ). And will begin my life there or a Ipoh ( qis house ). Dad i'm sorry i know you treat me as your own daughther but still you are not papa. Each time i think of papa my tears fell down. What a great man he was. And thank's to dad for taking care of mama and me all this years. Dad you still my dad. There's only one papa and ther's only one dad for me.

Qis, i will be leaving singapore in three years time. Hope you will wait for me.
And nothing to write now. hungry la. Nenek make some kuih lapis. looks really good. Mama and dad thank's for everything that you done for me. I owed alot from both of you. Nana don't forget to visit. grandma keep asking about you.

What should i say : )

Hye all....when i write this I'm in marina bay inside Singapore wheel...
Maybe you all know what i mean by...well..nothing much to share..just a crazy things..
Last 24 September...i text with Qis..first i thought it's normal chatting that will end soon. I really didn't take it seriously. What i need just a friend to be with me when i want to past my time. But things goes in other way. I accept that I really meet someone interesting in my life. I've never share this things with anyone before. but it's the time for the truth. And i admit that my heart stolen for the second time. but is it gonna be last forever? i don't really think so at that time. Because I thought it's gonna be same thing. And that person with big ego ( sorry dear :P ). then things changed...Qis was different. totally different. each time i'm with Qis i felt that i'm really safe...it's a strange feeling that i've never been through before. What happened to me? i also don't know. Suddenly we are in love. Then i thought it's will end soon..but it's getting deeper...now me without Qis is nothing. Each time i wake up i will think of Qis. Each time i eat qis will text me....Baby dah makan? huhuhu..nobody asked that to me..

Dissapointed!

Erm...mom and dad keep some thing from me. it was a important info in my life. but it's ok maybe they don't want me to get upset. So i will keep this thing wit me. As long i can live happily. I don't know y...i start to miss papa alot nowadays. Rest in peace papa..I love you. You always my hero. And dad thnk's for the kindness.
Special thanks to my seewtums. I learn many things from you. Hope that we can be like this forever.